It is already ten days into March, and somehow 2019 is already almost a quarter of a year over already?!? WHAT?! Life has been sincerely flashing right by me, and I’ve hardly had any time for myself, let alone time to blog (hence why I am writing this post at 12:14am Eastern time).
This is the first weekend I will be home in a while. Two weekends ago I was galavanting around Chicago with my best friend I haven’t seen in a year! We had the best time, and I will hopefully be able to write a post about our weekend because we hit up a bunch of local spots, saw the Joffrey ballet perform their new world premiere, and got matching tattoos! Anyway, it was a whirlwind and super jam-packed to say the least!
Last weekend, I was in NYC all weekend with my mother and grandmother for a girl’s trip! Back in October, we bought tickets to see the New York City Ballet perform Prodigal Son, which is a ballet my grandma has talked about taking me to for years! So we went into NYC for the Saturday matinee, went for a fun dinner, and stayed in a ritzy hotel near Central Park. You can read more about that trip at this link: New York City Ballet & New Beginnings
In other news, I was accepted into another summer intensive, which was the intensive I really wanted to attend! I will be attending the Peridance Capezio BLUEPRINT Summer Intensive in August! And guess what? This intensive starts three days after the Joffrey, Italy intensive ends, so they will not interfere with each other!
I was awarded financial aid for Joffrey, and if everything works out with my budget, I will be able to afford to attend both intensives! I might even leave a week early to explore Italy a bit before the intensive starts! My summer is looking like it is going to be full of dance and adventure, and I’m here for all of it!
As always, I am still having trouble sleeping, so maybe I can use my time at night awake to write for JLoF again. I love blogging and miss it dearly. I have some more auditions planned for this month, and a busy next couple of months! Fingers crossed that I am hired for some more dance jobs, and in the meantime, I hope I talk to you all again soon!
Over the first weekend in March, I went to New York City with my mom and grandma to see the New York City Ballet perform! This was my first time seeing NYCB perform, and the program they performed in particular is one my grandma has talked about taking me to see for years! They performed Prodigal Son and Liebeslieder Walzer, and both were FANTASTIC.
The Prodigal Son ballet is based on the Prodigal Son parable in the Bible. The story centers on a son who asks his father for his early inheritance, and he leaves home excited to spend all of his new-found riches. On his journey, he is wasteful and extravagant with his inheritance, and ends up destitute, only to crawl home and beg his father to take him back as a servant. To his surprise, his father does not scorn him, and instead, accepts him back with open arms and love.
The ballet adaption of this tale was magnificent. The choreography was so different/contemporary than what I expected. This ballet originally premiered in 1929 when George Balanchine created it on Diaghilev’s Ballets Russes. For choreography in 1929, Prodigal Son must have been incredibly avant-garde. Nonetheless, it was gorgeous! I loved every minute of it.
The other ballet we watched – Liebeslieder Walzer – was much different compared to Prodigal Son. Liebeslieder Walzer is set in an 1800s era ballroom, and centers around four couples dancing in the midst of their romances. It is set to 33 of Johannes Brahms waltzes, which were sung by a quartet on stage alongside two piano players. The first part included 18 waltzes where the dancers were in period costumes with character heels. The second half included the last 15 waltzes where the female dancers changed into these gorgeous taupe, purple colored romantic tutus and pointe shoes!
The second part of the Liebeslieder Walzer was a favorite of mine! I saw Tiler Peck SLAY her solos which was a really cool experience for me! Additionally, the costuming and the lighting in the second part captured the romantic mood of the set and the music perfectly. Everything about the Walzer was sheer magic!
After the show ended, we went to the Sugar Factory! My mom and grandma had never been, and the Sugar Factory is known for it’s insane drinks and outrageous desserts! The three of us split a Mai Tai, and it was delicious… and strong. We ordered burgers for dinner (turkey for me), which were also really tasty. For a franchise so focused on dessert and candy, I was surprised their dinner quality matched their drink quality!
Later in the evening, while my mom and grandma were cozy in the hotel room, I walked around Times Square and bought myself a cute ring at Pandora as an “I Love Me” present. This was an important weekend for me, which I will explain below.
Later in the evening, I received a text from a friend telling me to meet him at this underground bar for his friend’s birthday! I never have the chance to see this friend, and he is actually a dancer I picked up from the airport when I was working at the American Dance Festival this summer. Our night together was spontaneous and fun, and was great cap to end an awesome day!
This weekend was really special for many reasons. Without even realizing, my mom and grandma booked this trip on the exact day I decided last year (2018) I was going to end my engagement. On that exact weekend last year, I found out the hard way the person I was engaged to was NOT the person I thought he was. It was the worst weekend of my life, and the most shocking emotional trauma I’ve ever had to process. In those moments last year, I felt alone and disgusting.
Contrary to last year, this year I was surrounded by so much love from friends and family. I was in my favorite city in the entire world watching my favorite art form ever, with my two favorite women in the entire world, and ended my night dancing with one of my favorite people… I couldn’t have asked for a complete 180 degree turn around from where I was emotionally and physically this exact weekend last year. I feel very blessed for my family, and the friends I have made through dance. I am truly healing.
I had so much fun with my mom and my grandma, and they made the weekend super special. If you both read this – thank you for being phenomenal women in my life. This trip to NYC was the mark of new beginnings. I’ve officially survived one year through one of the hardest transitional periods in my life, and I can finally say I am excited for the future to come.
I have been on a whirlwind. 2019 began and I hit the ground running. I’ve been working *7* jobs, taking dance classes, and auditioning like crazy. I’ve been going to casting calls for jobs, but also for summer training programs. I wanted to share a fun story about my audition for the Joffrey Ballet School summer intensive.
Last week, I decided at the very last minute I was going to attend an audition for Joffrey Ballet School. The audition was on Saturday, and I decided Friday evening I was going to go. This was a bit stressful because for the audition I needed a picture of me in first arabesque in pointe shoes, and I needed a headshot with my hair in a “ballet hairstyle”. I didn’t have either on hand. So after a full day of ballet class for me, and teaching tap in the evening, one of my student’s moms’ helped me take a photo in arabesque, I drove an hour home, and my little brother helped me take a headshot with my hair in a ballet bun! Both didn’t turn out too shabby! I ended up running to a CVS at 11:30pm to print them out! When I said last minute, I literally meant the very last minute (the CVS closed at 12am).
The audition was in Putnam county NY. I taught barre and TRX Saturday morning, and then I drove myself to the audition site. I felt really good about how I performed. We took a ballet class and then performed combinations en pointe across the floor and in the center. When it was over, I thanked the instructor and the owner of the studio, and was informed I would know my results by the following Friday.
Two days later, I received my acceptance letter! I was accepted into 11 of their programs!! I was actually floored because I almost didn’t go to the audition, and now I have so many options and opportunities available to me!
I’m intrigued by so many of their programs, it’s all a tad overwhelming! I am definitely leaning towards the NYC Ballet Intensive (that is the bread and butter of the Joffrey Ballet School for the summer), and the intensive in Genoa, Italy!! If I attend any of these programs, I don’t think I could make a wrong choice. However, I’ve never been to Italy, and studying ballet and contemporary in Italy sounds like a dream come true!
Even more exciting – my best friend who lives in Chicago told me if I attend the Italy location, she will come at the end of the two week intensive to see our dance showcase, and then her and I could take a week and explore Italy and/or Europe together! Uhm, what!!! Can you say dream summer?!? I am so beyond excited at the thought of the possibility.
I still have a few more summer training programs I am auditioning for this winter, and as you can imagine, none of these programs are cheap. Before I put deposits down for anything, I am going to keep spreading my seeds far and see what grows in time. If this wasn’t already a lot to choose from, hopefully there will be even more to choose from in a few weeks!
It’s encouraging to receive an acceptance letter throughout all of this hustling back and forth between NJ and NYC. And it’s also reassuring that I am good at what I do and all of my effort is not for nothing. I will definitely be updating my blog with news throughout audition season. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
As 2018 winds down, the curtain just closed on my last performance of 2018. I finished out the year with my one company’s annual Nutcracker Tea – an abbreviated version of Act II of the full-length Nutcracker. Guests are invited to eat sweets and pastries as they drink tea and coffee and watch the main company and the student company perform. It was so much fun, and I enjoy performing the Nutcracker for all of it’s magic and for the beautiful music.
This tea is most suitable for young kids, as we also have “fairy makeovers” available to them before the show, and they have the option to sit up front and close at the children’s seating right in front of the black box stage. Their eyes are usually so excited and curious as they watch everyone perform. It’s a wonderful feeling knowing you’re inspiring young kids, and I imagine this is similar to what people working at Disney feel like. I would still love to work for the Disney company one day.
Other than Nutcracker, I performed in the gala for another company as their season opener on December 1. It was more of a wine and dine event for donors and patrons, but we performed a short, groovy dance for the attendees which was located at a really cute NYC dinner theater on West 72nd street. Lady Gaga apparently performed at this same theater before she became super famous, so it was kind of cool to think about that while having my own experience at the venue.
I have a few performances lined up for the new year already, as well as some auditions!! I’ll be performing a solo I’m choreographing at a showcase in March (which will be my first solo EVER!!), and I think we are going to be rehearsing for a full-length Cinderella ballet for May/June. The second week of January, I also have auditions for Disney World Orlando, and Royal Caribbean. They are open calls, so I’m expecting to be waiting a while as there are usually 400-600 people who show up for open calls. I will be re-auditioning for the Rockettes’ Summer Program in January or February as well, and hopefully more opportunities will be available soon. I can’t wait!
2018 was filled with many successes, adventures, leaps of faith, and new experiences. Although checkered by heart break and some failure, I’d say for what it was, I made 2018 the best I possibly could given my circumstances. I am looking forward to burying 2018 in the past, and moving forward into 2019 happier, healthier, stronger, and way more excited for the future.
Yesterday the foliage in NJ hit it’s peak! My best friend and I made sure we took advantage of the fall aesthetics before winter creeps upon us with a fun photoshoot. By next weekend, all of the beautiful golden and red leaves will have fallen off the trees and I will have to stare at barren forestry for the next 6 months. UGH. As the leaves die they are beautiful, but once they have fallen and are actually dead, everything turns gray for many months and it is so dreadful. And this daylight savings nonsense has me feeling some type of way with it being 5:30pm and PITCH DARK outside. Either way – I really like the vibe from all of these photos!
My best friend and I go out multiple times a year and take fun photos of each other! It’s something we’ve always done and always have fun doing. I just wanted to share some of the images with you. I feel very introspective/introverted lately in the sense of not sharing my feelings with people as I figure out my own way to process what I need to. These images reflect those sentiments, and I decided to work a lot with my hands to abstract how I’ve been feeling.
Confused, random, sleepy, happy, feminine, and grungy are all words I would use to describe my current emotional state and these photographs. Many of my most favorite images from these were taken when I wasn’t trying to make anything particularly beautiful, and it’s really amazing to see what my best friend decided to capture – purposefully and accidentally – and see what she thought was beautiful about these moments.
We traveled to a nearby farm near rolling mountains and fields of dead corn stalks as one of our backdrops. There is something about setting sunlight which makes everything seem angelic and feel okay.
I am so fortunate to have such an amazing best friend. Her name is Kelsie, and if you get a chance definitely check out her photography Instagram. It is at the handle @kdeckerpics. She is a phenomenal lady and artist!
I hope you like these images because they bring me some joy! They remind me of all of the onlookers who gave us funny looks or car honks from where we were taking photos, and all of the funny moments trying to create a cool image.
Enjoy the rest of your Sunday babes. Thanks for reading.