Re-Inventing Myself for Year 25

Hi readers!

It’s been a long time since I posted, and believe it or not, a lot more has changed since I received my acceptance letter into graduate school! I landed an amazing job, I re-built my wardrobe so it isn’t just athleisure, and I adopted a furry friend! In addition, I changed my hair style and color, and have been waking up genuinely happy for a consistent period of time (which is probably the longest stretch of waking up geuninely happy I’ve ever experienced). Additionally, I turned another year older, and am officially a quarter of a century old! Many changes have happened, and I’m sure many changes will continue to occur. But I wanted to let you know how my summer has been going, and how these changes have been woven into my day-to-day life.

Let me begin with my job! I am a mental health aide/recovery assistant at a residential eating disorder program for adolescent girls. I’ve been wanting to work at this facility for a year now, and finally landed the job back in May! I have learned A LOT already from working there for two months, and I know my experience at this facility will really benefit me with all of the counseling theory and training I will receive in graduate school. The job is super demanding, and really difficult at times handling so many patients, but I really appreciate my opportunity, and I love the facility I work at because it is absolutely beautiful! As someone who has recovered from anorexia nervosa, this is a very special way for me to utilize my experience with the disease to help young women.

Next, now that I have a full-time job, it has required me to buy clothes that are not just athletic clothing since I am no longer dancing or teaching four times a week. This, in turn, has allowed me to afford buying some new clothes simply for day-to-day, and social outings also, and for once I feel like I have a “style” to the clothing I wear. It’s been really fun playing with prints and colors, and the patients I work with have told me I have a very “bohemian” flare to my style, which is cool! I haven’t been choosing a bohemian style of clothes in particular, but it’s nice to know my clothing has a style coordination of some sort.

On my off days (which are during the week), I have been going down to my family’s beach house and meeting up with my good friend from undergraduate school. We’ve been going to the beach, and the boardwalk, and shopping! It’s been really fun to have some girl time, and also be TAN! I’ve not been this tan in such a long time, and I really love how sunkissed I look nowadays. I think the influx of vitamin D has been helping me feel so happy all of the time!

As you probably saw in my post about graduate school, I dyed my hair red. Then two weeks ago when I got a haircut for the first time since March, I decided to cut my bangs which was also an impulsive decision. But I really love them! I’ve been craving changes, and changing my hair is a really simple, and fun way to do it. I also feel like I’m truly starting to get to know myself in an authentic way, and my hair definitely represents this process.

Probably one of the cooler and more drastic changes I’ve made is I adopted a cat!! She is a tortoise shell colored cat named Sally, and she is super sweet. I’ve only ever owned dogs, so learning cat behavior is a tad anxiety-inducing, but also pretty cool because she is a gorgeous cat, and pretty mild-tempered for being a rescue and never being in a home with dogs before. I am looking forward to getting to know her more and learning her likes and dislikes so she can have a happy, and safe forever home with me.

Finally, I’ve been catching up with a lot of my cousins on my mom’s side of the family, which is awesome because I really enjoy my cousins and wish they lived closer. Most of them live on the West Coast or near the West Coast. But technology and social media have been fun ways to keep in touch and catch up on our lives amid this COVID-19 crisis!

Something else I’ve realized through the last two months was I really am not in the headspace to start dating again. I spent most of 2019 trying to find someone to date, and even had a boyfriend for half of a year, but we were at different points in our lives and decided to end things. I am working full time now, assimilating my rescue cat into my family’s home, and I am going to start graduate school full-time in about six weeks (which means I will have NO days off). On my off time, I want to spend it down the shore, or with my family. I officially deleted all of my dating apps/accounts, and after a year and a half of online disappointments, I am going to give digital dating and dating in general a rest. I’ve realized that being single at 25 years old is pretty “normal”, and I am definitely in no rush to “settle down” or get married.

So, I’m devoting the rest of 2020 (well, indefinitely) to myself and my goals and working hard and saving money. I will practice self-care and have fun when I can have it, and focus on what’s important – my degree and my family and my job. I have a lot of goals, and if someone told me this is what my life would look like at 25, I wouldn’t have believed them. But as I mentioned before, I’ve been waking up genuinely excited for life and happy for the first time in my whole life. I never remember being this consistently happy in my 25 years on this Earth. But who knew through this pandemic and all of these life-altering changes I would find and experience actual happiness for the first time ever?

I hope your summers are going well and hope you are finding joy in every day, and something to be grateful for. Keep working hard, staying positive, and manifesting your goals.

XO

Dreams Coming True in the Middle of a Pandemic

Hi friends!

Wow. Quarantine and the COVID-19 pandemic has been quite the experience so far. In about 10 weeks, I’ve been furloughed from every single job I held this past year (minus some dance company work which is being handled digitally). I’ve lost the opportunity to perform, to teach, to choreograph, to wish my senior dance students off to college, and to say goodbye to my students at my beloved dance studio I’ve taught at for the last three years. My unemployment is nonexistent, and I’ve not received a dime of federal financial assistance since NJ went into a state of shelter. I was in the middle of finally narrowing down testing to pinpoint all of the auto-immune responses/health issues I was having between October 2019 and March 2019. That has also been put-off for the time being due to COVID-19. Further, I even had to miss a trip to see my best friend in Chicago before she moves to Seattle. This virus has ruined every part of my life (except my health THANK GOD).

It’s been an extremely emotional, and tumultuous time for me. This pandemic has caused a great deal of panic for me, in addition to abruptly ending parts of my life I will never gain closure to. I feel robbed of experiences, memories, and the money I need to support myself and pay my bills on time.

Last Wednesday (March 13), I received some pretty horrendous news regarding the dance company I perform with in NYC. I broke down in tears at the news, and cried harder when I read,

“NYC theaters will remain closed until 2021”.

My heart sank to my feet. The impact this virus has on the dance world is severe and long-term. I think it will be at least a year until NYC’s dance and theater scene are back on their feet and running. NJ Governor Murphy even announced today that until there is a vaccine, the shelter will remain in place. I cannot even fathom how that is constitutional or supposed to work. Vaccines take at least one to two years to be created/tested. What that means for the dance world is performing arts and fitness are not going to operate how they used to ever again. What that means for life as I knew it is that life is over. I felt hopeless and directionless.

Photography by Cary Davis – Human Stories Photography

Last Wednesday, I’d had it. I’ve cried so much the last 10 weeks, and cried the hardest on Wednesday. The ONLY motivation that has kept me going this entire 10 weeks was my application to graduate school. I applied for a program to earn my MA in Clinical Mental Health Counseling with a Concentration in Dance/Movement Therapy, and a certificate in Life/Career Coaching. I sent my application in in the middle of March, and had my virtual interviews on May 7. I was anxiously awaiting the response because if I was accepted, I was going to have a direction. A goal. A purpose!

I woke up on March 14 to my phone buzzing. A mental health facility I applied to the night before was calling me regarding my application! The first call back in WEEKS. I landed an interview (which is digital and being held tomorrow morning), and after I got off of the phone, I called my mom, and then went downstairs tell my dad. As I walked up to my dad’s office, my phone “pinged” with an email regarding my application status was updated.

I opened the email, and BOOM! There it was in all of it’s glory and grace, an acceptance letter into the school, into my program – complete with a SCHOLARSHIP! It was as if the skies opened up and poured this life-changing shower of gifts and blessings over me all in the matter of minutes! A possible new job, more education, and financial aid!? I couldn’t believe it, and I am STILL in shock about it!

Becoming a Dance/Movement Therapist has been a goal of mine for the last 8 years! Dance/Movement Therapy is the reason I chose the undergraduate program I attended because they offered a minor study in it. The program I will be completing will allow me to graduate as a Licensed Professional Counselor, a Registered Dance/Movement Therapist, and a Board Certified Life Coach!

I want to work with veterans/military personnel, and women who’ve survived trauma. I want to write two books – a memoir about my life and experience with body-based trauma and movement expression, and a research-based book on how movement and dance heals the traumatized body and mind more effectively than traditional talk therapy. The beginning of all of these goals starts with this Master’s education, and I just CANNOT BELIEVE I AM GOING TO ACTUALLY DO IT!

This whole experience has confirmed to me this is what I am supposed to do with my life. I always knew it too, but this chain of events has confirmed to me I am in the right place in my life, and I will be able to help a lot of people. I have a direction, I have big goals, and I have a big purpose for this lifetime. I cannot wait to begin!

PS: My hair is red now this isn’t a filter

If you’ve made it this far, thank you for reading. Life is so strange and horrific and wonderful all at the same time. To me, it’s truly a miracle all of these amazing, wonderful things came to me during this time of extreme panic and no direction. I think the biggest lesson this taught me is to remain positive. There is light and hope at the other end of this pandemic.

I hope you are all healthy and safe! I will keep you all posted about this new job, and updates on schooling as they become available. Sending out lots of light and love to everyone. Stay safe!

xoxo

Future R/DMT LPC

One Skillet Turkey Sweet Potato Dinner

Hey friends! I’ve been in quarantine for over seven weeks, and have been cooking up some delicious meals I find on Pinterest or Google! I should have shared all of my creations, but I haven’t done that because a lot of recipes I’ve followed very closely to their original, and didn’t want to take credit for someone else’s meal. This recipe, however, I doctored and cooked differently than the original recipe directed. I also added a few ingredients to expand the taste, so I wanted to share what I created. It was a hit with my family and very easy to make!

You will need:

1 lb ground turkey (93-99% lean)

1 yellow bell pepper, diced

1 white onion, diced

4 cloves minced garlic

2 large sweet potatoes diced (or 3 cups worth)

4 tablespoons of olive oil (two for the pan, and two for the potatoes)

1 tbsp fresh rosemary

1/2 cup of shredded low-fat mozzarella

1 tsp chilli powder

1.5 tbsp cumin

2 tsp Soul Seasoning (you can buy this online here)

1/2 tsp red pepper flakes

Salt and pepper to taste

*Optional* 1 and 1/2 tsp of chopped parsley, cilantro, or chives – your choice

To begin, mix your diced sweet potatoes with olive oil, salt, pepper, and rosemary. Toss until coated. On a parchment paper lined cookie tray, roast the potatoes at 400° farenheit for 25 min.

Next, heat 2 tbsp of olive oil in a 12 in cast iron skillet. Add garlic and let the skillet and garlic get hot and fragrant about 3-4 min. Add ground turkey. Cook on medium heat until no pink shows 6-8 min.

Add cumin, chilli powder, red pepper flakes, and soul seasoning to season the turkey. Add salt and pepper to taste. Then add your small diced onion and yellow pepper. Let the onions cook until they’re translucent.

Now this is where your preference plays a role in your cook time. If you want your potatoes crispier, you can add a few tbsp of water to meat mixture to avoid the meat drying out as you wait for the taters to crisp up. You can lower the heat on the stove top while you wait. But I found the potatoes were cooked and somewhat crisp after around 25 min.

After potatoes are finished, immediately transfer them into the meat skilled and mix everything together. Top with your mozzarella cheese, and then take the whole skillet and stick it in the oven. Set the oven to BROIL for 1.5 min to brown and melt the cheese.

Take the skillet out of the oven, and top with chopped parsley or chives or cilantro! Or serve plain! Your choice!

Serve immediately and enjoy 😉

The end result is savory with a little kick of heat at the end, but the sweetness of the potatoes offsets the spice. It’s SO good, and low-fat!! I served this with corn muffins as a side, and it was very filling to feed my family of four (mom, dad, brother, and myself!). If you have a larger family, you can definitely double the recipe and cook it in two skillets or one larger pan!

I hope if you try this recipe, you enjoy it! Enjoy your meals with your families and loved ones, and stay healthy and safe!

Xoxo

Gluten-Free Protein Pancakes

Hey loves! I wanted to share a yummy recipe for all my quarantine-folk who want to try something different for breakfast! These gluten-free protein pancakes are also vegan because I use a vegan protein powder and unsweetened coconut milk, but feel free to use whey protein and dairy milk if you so choose!

The recipe is fairly simple, and you can doctor it to your liking. I add frozen blueberries to mine, and mix in half of a mashed banana, and slice the other half of the banana on top when they’re done. I’ve added chia seeds in the batter as well for even more protein, but you can also just add them on top afterwards for texture.

For this recipe, you will need:

2 scoops of protein powder
(I used 1 scoop of vanilla and 1 scoop of chocolate Arbonne protein powder which you can buy here)
1/4 cup unsweetened almond or coconut milk
2 tablespoons of almond flour
1/4 teaspoon of vanilla extract
2 egg whites
Optional toppings You can add whatever kind of fruit, seed, or sweetener, like maple syrup or honey! Feel free to mix any kind of nut butter in the batter, or spread it on top! Yum!

Mix all ingredients and add-ins in a bowl. I add a spread of coconut oil into a non-stick pan and cook the pancakes until they are light brown on both sides and not liquidy on the inside. You’ll be able to tell by taking a spatula and pressing down gently on the pancake. If nothing spills out, the inside is cooked.

The texture of these pancakes will not be a normal pancake texture. They’re a little softer/squishier, and less “cakey” than their traditional, glutinous counterparts. They’re still delicious, and keep me full for hours! This recipe yields about 4 silver dollar sized pancakes. Perfect single serving!

If you try this recipe, I hope you enjoy it! Any and all variations will probably turn out perfect! Stay healthy and happy my friends! ✌️

Xoxo

How to Create a Dance Reel

Hello loves! Today is day 25 (maybe?) of quarantine for me, and as I sit here and work on my application materials for graduate school, I realized I had to update my dance reel. Since interviews and auditions are now going to be virtual, I may be able to have my digital audition waived if I send them my updated dance reel. That being said, I haven’t touched my dance reel since late 2017 or early 2018. Two years has brought with it a ton of performance opportunity, rehearsal, and corresponding footage to add to my reel.

My brother used to have Adobe Premier Pro, which I used to create my dance reel the first few times in 2016 and 2017. If you have access to Adobe Premier Pro, I HIGHLY suggest you use that software. It is one of the best video editing softwares I’ve ever used. However, any software that can handle large files will do. Your reel doesn’t need a lot of effects or complicated edits.

Right now, my brother only has access to Adobe Premier Rush, which is a basic editing version of Premiere Pro. As I adjust to using a not-as-fancy software, I wanted to share with you that you can still use basic softwares to create a professional reel.

Bound” Borne Dance Company
The Secret Theater NYC

Here are my tips for creating a kick-ass dance reel!

  1. Choose a theme for your reel. If you need a reel for a teaching position, you want the reel to include class videos of you instructing, your choreography, you demonstrating in class, and giving students corrections. If you need a reel to audition for a role on Broadway, you want to showcase your more commercial styles of dance – jazz, tap, theater – and maybe include footage of you dancing in dance heels or other footwear you might be expected to wear if you were to land the gig. If you are a contemporary dancer and want to audition for a contemporary group, you would want to include footage of you dancing modern/contemporary styles, some improvisation footage, and maybe partnering. You can make multiple reels, and a lot of dancers do this to keep them all separate and concise. Determine your desired job, and then create from there.
  2. Access decent video editing software. As mentioned above, you don’t need software with a bunch of fancy tools. Adobe Premier Pro is wonderful because you can add arrows to your clips to indicate where you are on stage if the footage is of you in a group. With Adobe Premiere Rush, I am not able to add arrows. But instead, I chose clips where I am clearly in the shot and that is clear I am the person dancing. I also can add titles to the clip to explain the name of the piece, what group I was performing with, and the theater I was dancing in.
  3. Choose clips that are clear and showcase your best technique. I cannot stress this enough – but chose clips in a high resolution, where your form, face, and shape are discernible from the background/other dancers. You want to keep the clips short, and you don’t want the director taking each 5-15 second clip just to figure out where you are in the shot.
  4. Choose short clips. See above! You want to be distinguished from the rest of the shot, and you do not want the clips to be so long that the director or viewer become bored. You don’t need to showcase all 45 min of your favorite performance. Your favorite moment or moments will do just fine!
  5. Mute the audio on all video clips. You want to choose one audio track for the entire reel. Multiple audio tracks cutting in and out from clip to clip is distracting and looks unprofessional. Mute everything, and choose the right track to put over it!
  6. Choose engaging audio! You do not want to choose a very popular track (such as a song on the radio). Think of your reel and what fits best with what you are showcasing. Instrumentals are a great place to start for any type of reel. You want something dynamic and engaging, but not overpowering where it distracts from the footage. Also, keep songs appropriate. If your audio of choice does include lyrics, make sure it’s a clean track with no offensive lyrics.
  7. Transitions between clips should be simple. A classic “Cross fade” transition is very useful for reels. Its clean, and lets the videos flow organically into one another. Plus, almost every video editing software no matter how basic has this option. Keep the transitions consistent throughout the video if you can (use just one), and avoid any glaring transitions that distract from the clips.
  8. Keep your length short! The entire reel show not exceed three and a half (3.5) minutes. A five minute dance reel is just way too long for an individual. This is why it is good to make separate reels for separate jobs. Additionally, a choreographer or director will know how you move about a minute into your reel. Anything longer than 3.5 minutes they might not even look at.
PC: Dovitsky NYC
Bound” Borne Dance Company

Hopefully you found these tips helpful! As you create your reel, also make sure your personality shines through. You can choose text font styles, colors, etc. that you like. Just remember, keep those choices consistent throughout, and make sure they are not distracting from what is happening on screen. I will hopefully be finishing my new reel soon, and I will post the final version into a post on here once I am done.

Thank you for reading, and if you are taking this quarantine time to catch up on needed reel updates, I wish you well in your creations!

xoxo